| Description | (Assigned to the month above by William Bennett, in his article "Ann Robinson. The Second Wife of Matthew Boulton," Birmingham Daily Post, 1 Dec. 1938.)
Think not my dearest Creature that it is in the Power of Enemys or Friends, of Abscence, Sickness, or any other Circumstance to abate one Spark of that Fire thou hast kindled in my Breast. No I will sooner be torne to pieces by Savage Wolves than I will ever abate one jot of that Resolution I have so often repeated to thee. Therefore my Dear as thou hopest for mercy thy selfe, shew Mercy unto me; & not torter me by keeping me in doubts, wither I am to be happy & live in thy blisfull bosom, or wither I may dye some ignominious death. I am better since Thursday though I am but yet very poorly & of Consequence very Serious; & now in all the Seriousness of my Soul I again most Solemnly declare to thee, that I will never live to see thee in the Arms of another; for if I do my brain will be overturn’d with madness, & I should do some desperate deed: but if I was once assured my dear that thou wert mine, & that it was out of the Power of all my Conspiring Enemys to delude thee from me (for they are now busy) then should I be Chearfull & happy; then should I enjoy a Sufficient Share of health & Spirits to surmount all difficultys, & settle all things to my own & thy satisfaction My Concern for thee affects me not a little as I am too well convinced that thy present Situation renders thee very unhappy but hope me & my Charmer shall see the day when we shall be perfectly happy in each other & out of enveys power to make us otherwise. Hearing from thee & thy Mamma on Thursday gave me so much Spirits that I was able on Fryday to Settle my Fathers affairs with my Mother, Molly, John & Kitty [1] which I did so much to their Satisfaction & my own that they all seem to be pleasd as they find things better than they expected. And now I have a great inclination to leave my Gloomy House & go to Buxton for a fortnight. Perhaps the Waters & Changing the Scene may give me fresh Health & Spirits but I will first see thee before I determin, which I fear will not be till the middle of the approaching week for I had better get off all feverish complaints before I fateague my Selfe
Adieu God bless & preserve you & keep your heart & mind in Sincere & Constant Love towards me who am
Dear Creature
Your unchangable Lover
& most affectionate Friend
I wish I could say Husband
MB:
I should rather thy Mamma as well as thy selfe did not show my low Spirited Letter to any body
[Address-label:] To / Miss Robinson
[1] Molly, John & Kitty: Boulton’s brother and sisters. |